Today is thurday. Thursday.


its so hard not knowing what to expect. i don't know if i'll be sad, or excited. scared, or happy (to get away? i doubt it)

What will it be like to sit on the bus with people i don't know...going to a place i don't know...staying with people i don't know.... living in a home i don't know...

I'm glad everything is happening. Its nice to have something to anticipate, even if it does threaten my neatly organized life. It feels a little like christmas, but at the same time, i don't want it to come. I feel so conflicted inside.

HOWEVER, I've been trying to learn to live by what i do know these days, and not exactly what i feel (maybe its the choleric in me coming out).

What i do know is that this will be a life-changing time. I know that i will never regret going. I know i will see things that i have always wanted to see. I know i will learn things that i've always wanted to learn (i've just never had the guts to take the crash course, right?).

Its thursday, and i have under 3 days left in my quaint little life. Soon its going to be out of my hands. (i guess it won't be my life anymore).

8 comments:

Roo said...

YOU DID IT YOU DID IT YOU DID IT!!
IT WORKS IT WORKS IT WORKS!!
yahoo smart sweet crystal dawn.
so proud of your smart self!

your bloggie looks lovely.
you are lovely.

GOD BLESS YOU CRYSTAL...SHINE LIKE CRYSTAL AND run after HIM with all your heart.

Melodie said...

i can post a comment! YIPPEE!!
i'm proud of you crystal, so proud of you as you step out into the big world! love you

Anonymous said...

cheerio crystal..we're love and appreciate you...and of course, we'll miss you! m.a. xoxo

Anonymous said...

don't leave me!!

Roo said...

did you see my "ode to crystal" post?????
huh huh huh?????
did ya???
heh? eh?

Anonymous said...

Hey Crystal! I'm so glad Steph told me about your blog so I can hear about how things are going with you! Bless you! I'll pray that God will give you peace and grace to trust Him as you step out of your comfort zone. love Becky

Crystal said...

Thanks guys! i love you all so much...i can't believe its finally happening!
and ruth, thank you for the post! its much overdu...appreciated! heheh jkjkjkjk

Anonymous said...

Goooooooooo for it!!!

We're proud of you and excited for you.

Love Joc, Sher & the boys.