itslastcall

oh ruth. you encourage me to write. i just wish i had something poetic (or poignant) in me to say.

mel just made me a mix c.d. i really like it so far. music is so good for our hearts, no? when people sing the words right out of your heart. identified with.

this weekend i was at a hotel with some of the people i care most about on earth. i take these times for granted. these are some of the most important people to me and yet i can let a great time like this pass without getting down on my knees and thanking God for the PRIVILEDGE of knowing what love looks like with skin on.

i feel like i have so much to do this week. its reading week, which means i have plenty of time to catch up in all of my courses. thats a scary prospect, knowing myself so well. i can see the days going by with nothing to show for my breath and blinks. ah, what a waste we can make of life. ok, but the plan really is to get a lot of study done and also a lot of cleaning. by cleaning, i really mean i want to get rid of some stuff. clean out the closet. haha, oh yes the closet. in so many ways. i feel ready for spring and all the cleaning that comes with.


we had some weather this last week that was ABOVE freezing. what a beautiful flirting thing. it smelt a little like spring when the soil is moist and thawing, buds are forming, birds are chirping. dear steph and i were talking about those early spring days and how beautiful they are... the thaw.

but of course we couldn't spend too much time in wistful thinking...
we are after all only halfway through february. not yet time to be thinking about the thaw.

seasons are such beautiful things. teach us lessons every year.
there are times to bask in sunlight, times to work hard, times to harvest our fruit, times to hide away and wait for some warmth and promise, and new birth. new birth each and every year. we don't question whether spring will come. we just anticipate, wishing it would come sooner than it does.

i love manitoba. yes its cold. a little harsh. yet, its home. even on the coldest days, you will see the sun. especially on the coldest days... the sun is shining bright.

i don't expect anyone is reading all this rambling. its good to put some words down though. sitting here, listening to this pretty music from melodie. God has been so faithful to me. i can't deny it, even when i want to. (why would i want to? i don't know.)

well, whoever you are, i hope you are at peace. god bless.